Pressure!!!

So, I kinda cried in the bathroom tonight.

I'll start...
I earn less than RM2,000 a month.
Sometimes, lesser than RM1,500.
Yes, that's my salary even though I have a Bachelor's degree.
I used to work in the bank previously, but it only lasted for 6 months and a half.

I don't remember how, but my mom asked me to buy a house for us.
Well, yeah... I've always wanted to buy a house of my own.
I wanted my own asset.
But I just graduated last year.
How can I buy a house?
I can't even afford to buy a car.
If you're wondering why, my family doesn't have a house nor a car.
We live in a rented shop house.
We used to ride the bus to go places, or walk, or ride the taxi.
Ever since GrabCar started their service, we use that.
So yeah, no car and no house.
My mom kinda pressured me to buy a house.
I told her I can't.
Not with my salary, not with my commitment.
I have student loan to pay every month.
My GrabCar ride to work.
My insurance policy.
Lunch.
Phone top up.
I give my mom money too.

Haven't I done enough?
I mean, I started becoming a part-time insurance agent to earn a side income although I'm not good at it.
I even sell my stuffs online.
And started investing.
It's not going well, but it will soon, I believe.

I have too much on my plate.

My mom wanted to buy a house using my dad's EPF money.
Umm, how??
My dad is working oversea for like 8 years now.
Then she said after my dad comes back, he'll withdraw the money.
I asked her, who is gonna buy a house?
She replied, "You! And Ryan" (Ryan is my brother)
I was like, "I can't. My salary is not enough. The bank wants the ratio to be 60:40."
Then, she, "Then, fine. Let's just live here. Don't need to buy a house."
She started sulking.
When I tell her about a house I was aiming at Senadin that costs about RM340,000, and I just need to pay RM3,000 to book the house, she started talking to my sister.
She didn't want to listen.
But I kept talking and telling her that the lady selling house told me not to live there after I buy the house.
She asked me to rent it to students so I can pay the monthly installment without me taking out my own money.
I stopped talking when my mom ignored me.
**The conversation was more or less like that**

I need a new phone and spectacles actually.
But the balance of my salary is not even enough to buy both.
I've went to the phone repair shop TWICE to fix my phone.
I don't think I should go for the third time.
I might as well buy a new one.
As for my spectacles, I've been wearing this one for like 3 years.
My vision is different now ever since I started working my current job.
I face the laptop screen for an average of 10 hours a day.

My family can't rely on my salary and my brother's.
My brother earn exactly RM1,000 if not mistaken.
His employer ain't fair to him either.
My brother calls sometimes and saying he's sad.
Sometimes, he sounds depress and wants to cry.
He said he's not happy there.
He loves his job, but his employer treats him unwell.
He'll be leaving his job next year, around February, after about 4 years of working there.

So yeah, that's the reason why I cried in the bathroom.
I was pressured.
I already have pressure at work, now at home?
I know, my sisters dislike me when I didn't buy them stuffs, but I didn't buy anything for myself too.
You should see what I eat for lunch.
My food usually cost less than RM5 because I only take side dishes.
Sometimes, I do want to go out with friends, but with my tight budget, I can't.
Another reason is that I don't have a car.
I even plan to go travelling next year.
Travel, I love to travel.
But I never got the chance because I have a tight budget.
Now, I'm saving money for travelling and for a car's downpayment.
Hopefully, I can achieve these two by the middle of next year.

Thanks for reading.

Why me?

Hey peeps!
It's almost the end of 2018.
I decided to write a post today after a long time.
I just had to write this out 'cause I'm feeling a lot stress lately.
I'll begin with how my day went.
Let's start!

This morning, I woke up around the time I usually does.
Specifically, I woke up at 8.22am.
I think I forgot to set my alarm the night before.
Because it didn't rang this morning.
So yeah, I got up and get ready.
After that, I go to work.

We started by doing a little trading.
Yeah, that's my job, trading.
My job involves doing cryptocurrency.
After that, lunch time.
I ate alone as usual.
Went back to the office.

Okay, this is where it starts.
We did a little trading again.
And then, somehow, I was asked to write a formal letter.
I was asked about the storyboard for video animation.
This is what I'm going to talk about.

Let me tell you.
Before I started working here, I was told that the job scope was doing trading and customer service.
Somehow, I'm doing more than that.
I write news, look for a video animator, write the storyboard for the video, write a formal letter, design posters, etc
What's worse is when I'm rushed, and when people ask me stuffs about another thing that we're supposed to do while I'm struggling to finish the one I'm currently working on.

I used to love the working environment because everyone is friendly, helpful, and fun.
But as days go by, I'm starting to dislike it.
It's like everyone is taking advantage of me.
I always ask myself, "Why me?"
I cannot handle stress.
That's just me.
When I'm under pressure, I'll always stay quiet because I'm mad under pressure, but actually wanting to cry.
That's not it.
I don't just work during office hours, I work after I reach home too.
Nope, it's not another job.
It's the same job, except I work from home.
My working hours is from 9am to 6pm, but most of the time we had to stay a little longer at the office.
After reaching home, most of the time, we're required to some trading.
Usually we start trading around 9pm, and it usually ends around midnight.
We work during our day off too, and also during public holidays.
I can barely rest.
Sometimes, I have to be on call like a doctor.
There are a few times where I was out with my family on my day off, and they were looking for me, so I had to rush home just to work.

To those people who have a rough time at work, hang in there.
I'm staying strong even though I burst into tears sometimes.
Stay strong all.
I just need to get this off my chest.

As I'm ending this post, I'm actually doing my work.
It's 10.22pm.

Christmas Video!

Hello! It's been a while.

Been busy since it's my second last semester.

Okay, here's the thing, it was our Christmas event the other day and we made a short video for the event.

I posted it on YouTube.

If you don't mind, I would like you to go on YouTube to check the video out, 'like' or even comment.

Or you can just watch the video down below.

It would be very much appreciated 💕

THE GIFT OF CHRISTMAS

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Life as we know it

I'm not going to talk about what happened today.
In fact, I'm going to talk about something.

Okay, so..
This year, I have seen a lot.
I have seen:
People who lost their loved ones.
People who take advantage of other people.
People who get scolded for no reason.
People who are making other people hate them.
People who are being nice to you for a reason.
People who turned back to God (or against).
People who changed.
People who realized they're not meant to be.
People who are "parasites".
People who talk bad about their friend(s) on social media.
People who wants to earn fast money without knowing the consequences.
People who says and thinks Sarawakians are not smart.
People who compliment themselves.
People who are thankful for people who were nice to them in the past.
People who are naive.
People who are nice to others no matter what.
People who are afraid to order their own food.
People who are clumsy.
People who judge other people's clothes.
People who make fun of handicapped people.
People who destroy the homeless' source of income.
People who forgive.
People who lie to keep you happy or protect your feelings.
People who willingly go through a lot for the sake of someone they love.
People who know they have a lot of debts, but just let it be.
There are so many more!

I, sometimes don't understand why.
Why it happened?
Why do people do it?

Change for the better, not for the worse.
You know yourself.

Don't sit back and complain about what a bad shape the world is in.

Pardon me if I'm out of topic.

Sad. Tiring.

As you can see, the title says it all.

Well, there was no class today, but I was supposed to accompany Puvin to go jogging.

I set my alarm the night before -- 7:50 AM

When my alarm rang this morning, I woke up and turned it off.

I was thinking, Puvin will call me about this, so I went back to sleep.

Before 9 AM, I woke up and checked my phone.

There was a WhatsApp notification from Puvin saying that he wanted to sleep.

So, I told him to just sleep. Lol

I was too sleepy and lazy myself.

I went back to sleep again.

A few minutes before 11 AM, I received a phone call from aunt Jenny saying that she's coming to Melaka from KL.

She wanted to bring me out for lunch.

I said, "Okay."

Lunch. FREE LUNCH!

I mean, who doesn't want free food?

I got out from bed around 11:15 AM and shower.

...and I got ready.

But then, Puvin called me to go out for lunch with him.

I told him I was going out with my aunt around 12:30 PM and he sounded sad.

I would've brought him along if he didn't have class in the afternoon.

So yeah, he came in front of my dorm to get my pendrive from me because he needed to edit and print out a permission letter to leave classes.

I gave him a bun as well, because I didn't want him to go hungry.

My aunt arrived earlier than the time she stated.

Puvin sent me til the stairs to the boys' dorm.

I went up and meet up with my aunt.

I thought she was alone, but she wasn't.

It was a bummer.

My uncle was with her.

NOOOOOO!!!!

Uh huh, we went out for lunch at Suukee Chicken Rice.

We talked and talked.

Ughh!

I knew my uncle was going to talk to me about insurance.

I KNEW IT!

When I told him about Elken, he said insurance is the best.

At first, he demotivated me.

As time goes, it made me feel like,

I AM GOING TO PROVE HIM WRONG!

Adakah patut he ask me, "Bill Gates is a billionaire, why does he still have to work?"

What kind of question is that?

...and so, they sent me back to college.

I saw Fiona and Julie were on their way out.

When I got out of the car, their faces were like, eyes bulging out and mouths were wide open.

They said the car is really cool.

I remembered it was a Toyota Camry Hybrid.

Since they were going out, they asked me to tagged along, going to Mydin with Zul and Rina as well.

We went there to withdraw cash and pay our Wi-Fi bills.

I bumped into Catherine and Xue Nee while I was at the ATM.

They wanted a ride home, so I said okay.

Our ride back to college was pretty packed.

On our way back to our room, Puvin was at the washing machine, picking up his stuffs.

He asked me how was lunch?

I was so mad and told him everything about my uncle.

He said he knew it.

He knew that if I came back happy, it's because I'm with my aunt.

If I came back angry, it's because of my uncle.

HAHAHAHAHA!

True, true, true!

We talked for a while and Puvin decided to skip class, since it's Mr. Hong's class.

I asked him if he was sure.

He said yes because he hasn't packed his stuff yet.

Where is he going, you ask?

Well, he's going back to Kuching for his cousin's wedding.

We talked and he sent me off -- back to my room.

We were going to 'lepak' again before sending him off to Melaka Sentral.

We 'lepak' around 6 PM.

We talked and talked, and suddenly I felt sad.

I don't know.

Was it because he's leaving tonight, or something was bothering me?

I just don't know.

...and after a while, we had dinner, talking again and he sent me back to my room at 7:30 PM.

At 8 something, Fiona, Julie and I were waiting at the lobby to send Puvin to Melaka Sentral.

I called Puvin and he said he was putting his socks on.

Okayyy?

...and finally, he came.

Julie said he looked like he was going for a camping trip. Hahaha

As we were walking down the stairs to the parking lot, Zexen appeared unexpectedly.

I didn't know he came.

So, he came together with us.

I asked for Puvin's phone and searched Locked Away by R. City on Youtube.

I asked him to listen to that song, later.

Also, Zexen was telling us that Pastor John really like me and Puvin being together.

That is kinda... Weird?

When we arrived Melaka Sentral, Zexen wanted to go eat.

So, we went to McDonald's.

After eating, he said he was still hungry.

I gave him a how-come-you-are-still-hungry dash face.

I didn't want to tell this, but I kept looking at Puvin.

I miss him even though he was next to me.

...I was too ego to admit.

It was almost time, so we had to send him off at the platform.

He put his things in the bus trunk and came back to me.

He hugged me and kissed my forehead.

I don't know what I was feeling.

Was it sadness, or emptiness? Maybe both?

Okay, here comes the funny part.

He was going into the bus.

Turned out, it was the wrong bus.

HAHAHAHA!

He got out and took his things, and went to the bus next to it.

He put his things in and Fiona said, "Fail! Hahaha. Ask him to hug you again."

He went inside immediately though because it was almost time.

When the bus started moving, he waved goodbye to me and gave me lots of flying kiss.

I did the same.

Automatic reaction.

Then, off he go.

On our way to the car, Zexen and I conversed about something and ended up asking each other a weird question.

Zexen kept on bullying me in the car.

I said, "Puvin pergi, alu kena buli."

Fiona: "Ohhh, takut dengan Puvin oh."

Zexen: *paused* Respect.

I asked if we were going back or going to eat.

...and then I said, "Aku tauk, Zexen and... KAU lapar." to Fiona.

So yeah, we ended up eating at a mamak stall near D' Puteh.

I ordered roti naan (flatbread) and a glass of Teh O Ais.

I told Puvin I was eating roti naan and he said that's his favorite.

Suddenly, I was craving for that and I didn't know why.

Bla, bla, bla!

*poof*

We're back in college.

Back in the room and showered.

It felt weird.

I didn't leave room, like I used to.

No Puvin! T.T

5 days without him.

I'm just in my room, waiting for Mars to show itself in the sky.

Well, there wasn't.

Bummer.

Oh yeah, I asked Puvin if he had listened to that song.

He was listening to it.

I told him to read the lyrics as well.

He was shocked that the lyrics matches our everyday question.

It's almost the same.

All in all, it was a tiring and a sad day.

R. City ft. Adam Levine - Locked Away

"I don't know." - 8th semester

Hi!

I know, it's been like more than a month.

So, yeah.

It's my 8th semester.

This is my 2nd week of this semester, already.

I don't know.

It feels like college, sometimes it doesn't.

I just don't know.

Truthfully, my classes aren't packed this semester.

Really.

When I don't have classes, I don't know what to do.

I can't just stay in my room, take long naps and going online all the time.

I can't just go dating all the time.

Well, those are my only options because I don't want to study, but I still want to pass.

But, when I do have classes, I want to go back to my room, as soon as possible.

Lectures are boring but sometimes it's fun.

I don't know.

I can only pay attention when the lecturer is saying something interesting, you know, something that attracts your attention.

That is all because, sometimes I feel like I have a future studying under this college, sometimes I don't.

Sometimes, I ask myself:

...What job will I get when I graduate?

   ...How much salary will I receive?

      ...Will I be unemployed?

         ...How can I help my parents?

I don't know what to do.
It's my third year in degree.
...and I have like 4 semesters to go.
I can't just stop studying.
I've gone this far.
I've survived 8 semesters.
I'd be really stupid if I decide to quit this college.

I can't say what my future is going to be like.
I leave everything in God's hands.
He knows best.

End of semester 7!

Well, well, well.
I made it through this semester.
It's the end of semester 7.
5 semesters to go.
Woohoo!!
Guess what?
This was one tough semester.
I would like to thank those of you who has helped me.
Without you, I would have given up on education, and life.
Because, I'm hoping to get a good result this semester.
*fingers crossed*

Oh and,
I'LL BE GOING HOME SOON!
Yeah, finally.
I've been here for 7 months.
Can you imagine, not seeing your family for 7 months?

Worst part is...
I'm gonna miss my boyfriend.
His sweater, his hug, his scent... EVERYTHING!
We wanted to spend time together, after my last paper.
Unfortunately, it seems a little impossible.
We were both busy packing and cleaning.
Eventually, my brain thinks that he doesn't love me anymore.
I know, typical, right?
Girls are like that.

I'll write up until here, 'cause I feel a heartache.
...and I feel like crying.

Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here

This song totally explains my whole situation right now.

The sound of trumpet coming from the sky.

Yes!

That's right!

The sound of trumpet coming from the sky.

If you're a Christian, you'd know what it means.

How did I know about this?

Well, yesterday I was scrolling through Miri Community's group page on Facebook and crossed upon a post.

It was a screenshot-ed news about a trumpet sound coming from the sky and the sound was heard throughout the US to Germany.

To be honest, it made me scared because I knew what it meant.

Today, I told Fiona about it and her eyes kinda bulged out.

She immediately asked me to show her the screenshot-ed news.

I searched for it in the group and came across something else.

It was video.

It didn't have any attractive title, description or thumbnail, but I opened and clicked play it anyway.

The venue of the video was at a parking lot and everyone was looking up into the sky, confused.

Weird sound coming from the sky.

When I first heard it, I knew exactly was it was.

It was the sound of trumpet.

I asked Fiona to come over and listen to it.

Then, Julie told us that the sound of trumpet from the sky was heard 5 days ago, in Bintulu, her hometown.

This is getting strange and scary.

I told my boyfriend, Puvin about it after dinner before he sent me back to my room.

After talking, I went back to my room and online.

I think about a half an hour later, Puvin called me.

He sounded panic and asked me to come out and see him.

I came out from my room and saw him on the phone.

I don't know who he was talking to, but I'm sure it was important by the looks from his face.

I asked him why did he call me out.

He walked towards me and placed his left hand on his chest.

He sat down on the stairs to my block and I sat with him.

He told me that the person he was on the phone with was his brother, Beron.
He said Beron had a dream about this yesterday morning.

He dreamt that he was walking, and then an old man stopped him by showing him a newspaper article.

While showing him that article, the old man said that the trumpet sound will come from Germany and it'll be doomsday for all of us.

Beron just took a swift look at the newspaper.

The old man continued, "The light will shine from Syria."

After I heard the story, I had goosebumps.

Seriously.

His brother even said that the article that came out is exactly like what he saw in his dream, but without the title. The layout was exactly the same.

We were speechless after he told me the story.

If you'd read

Matthew 24:31 "And he shall send his angels with a great sound of a trumpet, and they shall gather together his elect from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other."

Matius 24:31 "Dan Ia akan menyuruh keluar malaikat-malaikat-Nya dengan meniup sangkakala yang dahsyat bunyinya dan mereka akan mengumpulkan orang-orang pilihan-Nya dari keempat penjuru bumi, dari ujung langit yang satu ke ujung langit yang lain."

This news is by CNN Indonesia.

Translation: The sound of trumpet is heard from the US until Germany.

Another news.

This newspaper article is what Beron saw in his dream, except it doesn't have a title.

The layout is exactly the same.

The video that I saw in Miri Community's group page.




JESUS IS COMING, SOON!

Seventh semester!

*Sorry again, for not updating.*

Guess what?

This is my second week of semester 7.

The first week was real tough.

Or should I say busy and stressful.

It was full with assignments, presentations' preparations, quiz, meetings and I had to go for my part time job too.

I barely have time to take naps.

Naps are pretty important to me.

I barely have time for my boyfriend too!

Oopps! Did I say boyfriend?

Oh no, you caught me.

Yeah, I have a boyfriend.

He's Indian.

I know, I know.

"WHAT???", right?

My boyfriend's not totally Indian though.

He's mixed.

He's an Indian-Bidayuh from Kuching, Sarawak.

Surprisingly, his lifestyle is like a Chinese.

Seriously.

He can use a pair of chopsticks way better than me.

I, as a Chinese, feel ashamed.

His name?

Nah, not gonna tell you, yet!

When did we started going out, or should I say dating?

Well, you find out.

Now, back to the topic about my new semester.

Since this is my second week of semester 7, I hope it wouldn't be as tough as last week.

It felt like I was struggling for my finals.

Gotta strive for the best this time.

I'm just aiming for a pointer of 3 and above.

I can't bear to see my pointer dropping.

I'll feel sad, really.

So yeah, I have 7 weeks left of this semester because it's a short one.

I can't wait to get everything over with.

7 weeks to go!

I CAN DO THIS!

Lazy, not busy.

Hello!
I'm back in Miri for my semester break.
Yeah, I know. It has been a few months since I last updated.
No, I wasn't busy. I was just lazy. I mean, I am.
Furthermore, the wifi is too far. Too far, I tell you.
I have to get out from my room to reach the wifi.
Ain't nobody got time for that.

What was I doing for the past few months?
Well, I was struggling to survive.
I had to study and work.
Study to get good results and work as a part-time waitress to pay my room's rental. (Not really. I used up the money to buy food!)
Sounds hardworking, right?
Yes, I study, but I always end up sleeping.
And yes, I work, but I always end up eating in the kitchen.
See! Lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
I've been busy eating and sleeping.
That's like my daily routine.
Ask me what do I do for fun?
It will always be eating and sleeping.
It started ever since I became a teenager.
Blame puberty.

Now, about the IELTS exam.
I did BAD!
Regret for not sleeping.
Yeah, I didn't sleep the night before the IELTS exam.
I fell asleep during the listening test.
I took more than 40 minutes to finish Section 1's reading test because when I read and read, I can't seem to focus.
The writing test was okay, I guess.
And then, there's this one more test that was 3 days after the other 3 tests.
It's called the speaking test.
I did BAD for this one too.
During the speaking test, the judge(?) will keep asking "Why?" so we would talk more.
I didn't know that until she hand me a note during the ongoing speaking test.
On the note, she wrote, "Why? means talk more."
That was nice of her, but still, I can't manage to talk more.
At the end of the speaking test, I asked the judge a question,
Me: "Can I pass?"
Judge: "How can you pass when you didn't talk more?"

What else?
Hmm... Well, there's this guy who has so much in common with me.
That's all I can tell, for now.
So yeah.
That's the end of my post.

*THE END*

Unexpected!

Yes, unexpected.

At the end of the day, I kept wondering, "Why did all these happen?"

Okay, here's how everything started:

This morning, I have 2 classes, which was IELTS and English Literature.

I woke up 10 minutes before class.

The first class started at 8.30am.

I went to the bathroom and shower.

I came out at 8.40am.

I told Amal that I'll be going to class at 9am.

She agreed to go late with me.

When it was time, we both went. (Fiona wasn't going.)

Unexpectedly, Mr. Gan did not say, "Good afternoon." to the both of us.

He always says that when his students are late.

He was expecting around 6 students to attend his class, but there were 18.

After we took our seats, Amal told me that Johnathan didn't come to class since his seat was empty.

So, we proceed with class.

Class ended at 10.30pm.

Those who didn't come for IELTS, burst in through the doors to get in.

Mr. Gan asked us to take a 5 minutes break.

I went back to my room.

I was lying on the bed and when I looked at my clock, it was already 10.50pm.

I was late again. I was on break for 20 minutes.

It felt as though as a minute just passed.

I quickly went up the stairs to class and when I reached class, the class had not even started.

So, we were going to answer some questions on the board and present our presentation.

Bla, bla, bla!

It was time for presentation.

Mr. Gan asked, "Who wants to go first?"

Amal pointed me and Johnathan's gang said, "Johnathan!"

Then, Elena said, "Karen first, then Johnathan."

I felt something was wrong.

Unexpectedly, Elena went first.

After her presentation, I don't know who was presenting next, me or Johnathan.

I looked to where Johnathan was sitting and I heard him saying, "我还没有准备好。" (I am not ready), while going through his file.

But he went in front and present.

His focus was "Sacrifice."

When he was presenting, I didn't want to look at him.

I heard Fiona saying, "Look in front."

While he was presenting, Mr. Gan kept saying, "We already know that."

Mr. Gan also said, "If you have a teacher like this, what will happen to the students?"

Amal answered, "Fail!"

I laughed.

I shouldn't have done that.

After Johnathan finished presenting, it was my turn.

I went in front and stated:

1. Presentation 1 or 2

2. My topic

3. My focus

When I said my focus was "Love is blind."

Everyone kept quite. Literally.

I sensed something was wrong again.

I started talking about my presentation and Fiona laughed.

I know why she laughed. It was as though as I was talking about Johnathan.

Well, I wasn't.

After finished presenting, the presenter has to ask the students a question.

My question was, "Do you think love is blind? Why?"

Mr. Gan asked me to choose someone.

I saw Fiona laughing, so I chose Fiona.

Mr. Gan asked her, "Fiona, what do you think? Do you think love is blind?"

Fiona: "Based of my life, as her roommate, love is very blind."

The whole class laughed.

I was starting to think that she was trying to exposed about me having a crush.

Mr. Gan: "Very blind?"

Fiona: "Not very blind, but blind."

Mr. Gan: "Why?"

Fiona: (Looking towards me) "Do you really want me to answer?"

Me: "NO! Thank you. Catherine?"

Wei Jian: "No, I want Fiona to answer."

Catherine: "Sheldon Cooper is talking." (And she explained her answer.)

After that, a debate happened between Catherine, Elena and Anthony.

Jenq Shiuan: (Raised his hands) Love is unconditionally. (And explained his answer.)

Jenq Shiuan's answer was really good.

If not mistaken, Wei Jian said he wanted to know my answer.

Mr. Gan: "Yes, Karen? What is your answer?"

Me: "I think love is blind because you can't see the flaws or weaknesses."

Wei Jian: "Wrong answer."

Catherine: "There is no right or wrong answer."

Mr. Gan: "Be more specific."

Everyone nodded and waited.

Me: "I can't answer."

Mr. Gan: "It's not that you can't answer, you just can't find the right words to explain."
I nodded and wanted to go back to my seat immediately.

Thank goodness Mr. Gan let me off.

No wonder I sensed something wrong.

I think they knew, because I saw them looking at Johnathan.

That was embarrassing.

After class, I quickly went out.

I can't bear to face the people in class.

I went for lunch.

While having lunch, we saw Serra, Nicole and Ashwini.

They were taking everything from the room to Serra's car.

We asked Serra where was she going.

She said, "Quit."

She was quitting college!

Unexpectedly, I was feeling sad.

Seriously, SAD!

We took pictures with her.

And, off she went.

After lunch, we were going to Melaka Central to buy bus tickets.

We went back to our room and get ready.

Wanie and Atiqah were going to bring us.

After we bought the tickets, we went to AEON because Wanie and Atiqah wanted to buy books using their vouchers.

We were going up to the first floor and I was leading the way to Popular.

I was a few steps ahead of Amal, Fiona, Wanie and Atiqah.

We were almost there.

That's when I saw Johnathan!

I stopped walking and saw Wei Jian next to him.

I turned around and run to the back of Fiona while saying, "Johnathan! I saw Johnathan!"

They asked me, "Where?"

And they saw him. 

Jenq Shiuan and Johnathan came near and I heard Jenq Shiuan said, "真巧。" (What a coincidence.)

I wasn't staying, so I walked my way to Popular.

THAT WAS REALLY UNEXPECTED!

I didn't know he was going to be there.

You know what? Amal and Fiona told me that they had a feeling that Johnathan was going to be there.

Wow! 

We went back and arrived college around 5.30pm.

Fiona got ready for her Futsal training and I was ready to go jogging.

I went out and wanted to use my usual way, which was passing by the swimming pool.

I changed my mind when I saw Johnathan's bottle and slippers.

I saw Johnathan looking at me.

NOOOOOO!!!!

After what had happened today, I decided not to come out from my room.
Luckily, tomorrow is Saturday.
I don't even need to get out from my room.

Coincidence or fate?

First of all, I just wanna tell everyone that it's my best day ever!

Why, you wonder?

Okay, I'll tell you.

Today, we went to the theatre.

Fiona wasn't going because she sold her ticket to Eshal.

So, that's left me, Amal and Julie.

We were told that those who were going need to be at the lobby around 7pm.

When we reached the lobby, we saw Elena, Joanne, Janice, Wei Jian and Johnathan.

Amal asked them if they were going and yes, they were.

Johnathan was wearing a black and white long sleeves, and so was I, except with short sleeves.

Coincidence? I think not.

We were going to the theatre by van that Ms Helen had provided.

Who is Ms Helen?

She's one of the best lecturer.

She's the one that we were going to see in the play.

Back to the story.

Everyone went into the van.

Shangeri and Huda went in first and sat at the last row.

Joanne and Elena went in after and sat at the first row.

After that, Johnathan went in and sat at the second row.

Amal went in and sat next to Shangeri.

I was standing outside of the van, figuring out where to sit.

Suddenly, I saw Elena patting the empty seat right behind her, which was next to Johnathan.

And yes, I went in and sat next to Johnathan.

Janice sat next to Elena, while Wei Jian sat in front with the driver.

It felt so uncomfortable sitting next to Johnathan.

It was really awkward.

I didn't know what to do.

I looked behind, where Julie and Amal was sitting.

Amal said, "Kelaka" to me.

It means, 'Start a conversation' in the Sarawak language.

I told her that I don't want to.

So, it was awkward silence between me and him.

Still, I was happy sitting right next to him.

It was like 2cm apart.

Hahahahaha.

Upon arrival, we saw a lot of high class people. Literally.

Almost everyone was wearing formally.

And mostly were middle aged people.

We were considered the youngest there.

After taking our goodies bag, we were asked to go inside the auditorium.

It was so cool and cold.

I was sitting right behind of Johnathan.

It was a good opportunity.

Opportunity for what?

Opportunity for taking pictures of him.

And yeah, I took so much of it.

I told Amal that we should take pictures together with Julie.

Guess what!

Amal snatched away my phone from me and passed it to Johnathan, asking him to take our pictures.

He said that he wanted to take a selfie first. Haha.

Then, he asked me which part of the screen to touch to take our picture.

I told him.

After he took our pictures, I totally forgot that I took his picture from behind before my phone was passed to Johnathan.

It's no big deal? IT IS A BIG DEAL!

My camera application shows tiny pictures of the previous pictures taken.

I bet he saw his picture.

NOOOOOOO!!

About 20 minutes after,

A guy that really attracted me walk in.

He was wearing a black singlet, shorts and shoes.

He has tattoos and piercings.

I kept looking at him and all my friends noticed.

I said that he looked like Shafiq.

After he sat down, just across of Elena's row, I said this aloud: "He looks like Jay Park!"

They all laughed and agreed.

Johnathan immediately asked Janice, "谁是Jay Park?" (Who is Jay Park?"

Janice went on instagram and show him a picture of Jay Park.

He said that they don't look alike at all -.-

Oh and, Elena took pictures of us all using her phone.

Thank you, Elena! :)

Around 8.30pm, the play started.

It was going on and on.

Then, there was a 15 minutes interval.

My Jay Park went out.

To be honest, during the play, I planned to approached 'Jay Park' and take a picture with him.

When I came out from the auditorium, I saw him and he was looking at me.

He was talking to an elderly woman, so I went to the toilet first.

After coming out from the toilet, I walked to where he was and he looked at me, again!

But he was still talking to the elderly.

I wouldn't want to interrupt. 

It's a matter of respect.

The play was about to start, so my friends and I went in.

A few minutes later, 'Jay Park' walked in.

He sat in front with someone.

I assume that it's his mother.

After that, his 'mother' walked away from her seat and talked to someone else.

'Jay Park' was alone and Amal said that it was a good opportunity.

Too bad, the lighting wasn't good enough. It was dimmed.
Didn't take any picture.

And then, the last play started.
Ms Helen was in it.
We cheered for her when she appeared.
She was doing really well.
Good job!

After the play ended, 'Jay Park' went out immediately.
I shouted, 'My Jay Park!' and Johnathan giggled and looked at him going out.
So much for taking a picture with him.
I wanted to chase him, but Amal said that we should take a picture with Ms Helen.
So yeah, I went to Ms Helen.
We went on stage and something happened.
I didn't know what I did but, my butt hit something right behind me.
I looked back and saw Johnathan.
My 'behind' bumped into Johnathan's 'front.'
Why, oh why?
I saw Wei Jian laughing. Man, why did you have to see that?
That was embarrassing.
I really didn't know Johnathan was behind me.

Never mind about that.
So, we took a picture or two with Ms Helen and her husband.
After coming down from stage, I told Amal what had happened.
We went to the toilet and then the parking lot.
We waited for the van for about 20 minutes, I guess.
I think Johnathan was staring at me.
He was leaning at the wall and staring at me. (My assumption)

When the van arrived, I sat behind with Amal and Julie.
He was sitting in the first row, where Joanne was sitting earlier.
Our destination was McDonalds because we were very hungry.
At McD, only Amal and Johnathan stayed in the van.

Julie and I lined up in the same queue.
When it was my turn to pick up my order, everyone vanished.
I looked around again and I saw Johnathan near the one sided door.
He was waiting and walking around.
I thought he was waiting for Wei Jian.
I ignored him and went back to the van.
You know what?
Everyone was already in the van.
Does that mean Johnathan was waiting for me?
Please tell me he was.

After arriving college, he immediately went out of the van and said, "MU!"
Oooohhhh! He's a fan of Manchester United.
While on our way back to our room, Amal told me something.
She said that Johnathan talked to her.
Johnathan: Tidak makan/turun ka?
Amal: Tidak.
Johnathan: Suruh Karen belanja.
Something like that. I forgot what she told me.
OMG! He said my name. Hahahaha

I guess that's my story.
Long, isn't it?
I still can't get my mind off of what happened on stage.

The booklet they gave us.

The picture of Johnathan before he helped us to take our picture.

This was the picture he took for us.

There's my 'Jay Park.'

A picture with Ms Helen and her husband on stage.

*THE END*

The sweetest thing!

Hmm.. Where do I start?

Today, I was in a bad mood.

The whole day.

It's like, the moment I wake up, I hate everything.

E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G!

Seems like I changed into a whole new person, but I was still the same person, of course.

Maybe I wanted my 'alone time.'

Around 5 or 6 in the evening,

All of my friends went jogging.

I didn't follow, obviously.

I didn't have anything to do, so I went to Catherine's room to ask for her help about the accounting assignment.

I was half done in an hour.

I told Catherine that I wanted to go for dinner at 7.30pm and she agreed to accompany me.

When the time came, I went back to my room and get my money.

As I was locking the door, all of my friends came back and I saw Amalina holding a pizza box.

I didn't really care as I was still not in the mood.

So, Catherine and I walked all the way to Ayub Bistro, a mamak stall.

There, we bumped into 'Sampat Family.'

My crush was there too.

Oh and, Catherine brought up about the pizza thing.

She said, "They brought you pizza already."

I told her that I can eat it later.

Only then it hit me.

They were stalking my tweets.

This was one of them:

After that, we went to Mydin.

Bla bla bla, we walked around.

As we were lining up to pay for the stuffs, Catherine said, "Is that Lingham?"

I looked around for Lingham. I did not see him. At all.

I was about to ask, "Where?" to Catherine, when I saw Lingham right in front of me.

We borrowed his 'Meriah' card to get 30% and 50% discount for the stuffs we bought.

And then, the three of us walked back to college together.

As I arrived in front of my room door, I saw a lot of slippers.

I opened the door and saw Julie, Amalina, Fiona, Tracy, Eva and Clara.

They said, 'Hi!' to me and I just smile.

I saw the notification light on my phone blinking.

I opened it and saw a text from Fiona that was 3 minutes before I entered the room.

After that, I went to shower.

I came out after 20 minutes and saw the pizza box on my table.

Something was pasted and written on the box.

This was it:

I didn't want to eat it, but the smell was tempting.

Surprisingly, I ended up eating 3 pieces. Muahahaha! -.-

I'll have to admit, it's kinda sweet! :)

I love them so much!

*THE END*

It's a bad day, not a bad life.

This life is like a swinging vine.

Sounds familiar?

Yeah, I took that line from One Republic's Counting Star.

Okay, so today is literally a bad day for me.

Why, you asked?

Well, it started off like this:

First, I was late for class.

Second, I didn't know there was a quiz, so I studied 10 minutes before it started, hoping that it'll help.

Third, when I woke up from my nap, there were mosquito bites all over my body.

Fourth, my friends and I went jogging. After one round of jogging, it started raining. It got heavier and heavier by the second. We had to walk back to college under the rain.

Lastly, when we got back, in front of our room, we realized that we lost the room key. Although all of us have our own key, we only brought one with us. That's the problem. So, Amalina and I went walking under the rain again to get to our room window. Luckily it was opened. Since our window was quite high, I climbed on Amalina's shoulders and managed to climb in. Little did we know that we left the key at the lobby.

Just because bad things happen to you, doesn't mean you have a bad life. It's just a bad day.

When all these bad things happened to me, I was thinking that maybe God let me go through all this for a reason.

God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers.

Daniel Powter - Bad Day

Lucky me!

Good afternoon!
Sorry for not updating yesterday like what I promised.
It was because I arrived college, late!
Yeah, late.
Why?
Let me tell you why.
Yesterday, I went to church with Fiona, Julie, Tracy and Eva.
And then, we went to Aeon to watch the new movie, Need for Speed.
The speed. The thrill. The excitement. It was just awesome!
Okay, now back to the topic.
After the movie, we waited for the bus at the bus station.
We waited for about 2 hours and finally, the bus started.
We arrived college around 9pm.
Then, I did my paper work about my presentation the other day and finished my homework.
Finally, I was off to bed.
That's what happened.

As for today,
I was late for class. Literally.
Luckily, Catherine knocked on my room door.
Otherwise, I wouldn't have attend class.
Thank you, Catherine!

*THE END*

I am back! :)

Okay, so I have been neglecting my blog for about 2 years.

I am so sorry.

What have been going on with my life?

Hmm.. Let me see.

I am now studying at Putra International College, in Malacca.

It's my 3rd semester already.

Come and visit me sometime.

What else?

Errr.. I have a crush on someone.

I can't tell you who it is, yet.

Oh and, I feel like changing my blog's layout and everything.

Maybe later.

I'll be back again in the afternoon.

*THE END*

Addicted to Taylor Swift's songs ♥

I went on Youtube to see Psy's Gangnam Style that reached 1 billion views.
I don't remember how I ended up watching Taylor Swift.
Now, I'm addicted her songs, especially "I Knew You Were Trouble."

Taylor Swift - I Knew You Were Trouble
The guy is quite cute ♥

*THE END*

Recommendation!

THIS IS A MUST WATCH

2NE1 I LOVE YOU English Version M/V - NEW AMERICAN Boy Band "RADIO FOR THE PEOPLE" COVER

This video is awesome.
Seriously.
That's why I recommend it ;) 
You won't regret watching.
I promise :)

G-Dragon, happy birthday ~

GDAY [18.08]

This picture was originally posted by yg-life.com

G-Dragon in his workroom.

G-Dragon: Today is my birthday but I'm in a workroom. However, I'm happy for all the birthday wishes and this is a service!

On August 18, G-Dragon tweeted a 34 seconds video with the comment, "Today is my birthday but I'm in a workroom. However, I'm happy for all the birthday wishes and this is a service!" in Korean.

The video was taken in his workroom. It includes his new song, which has groovy beats, and G-Dragon appears about five seconds before the video ends to say hello. He drew a lot of attention by wearing a hat, which says, "Today is my birthday."

G-Dragon was going to release his second solo EP on August 18. It has been three years since he released his last solo EP. But the release was postponed because the Korea Media Rating Board said they will rating music videos on August 18.

WISHES

TAEYANG's tweet.

JAY PARK's tweet.

SE7EN's tweet.

Also, I followed G-Dragon's blog
http://www.xibgdrgnx.com/

Eanaa dreamt about Raphael !!

Yes! Another dream about Raphael, from a friend of mine.
I wonder why my friends always dream about me and Raphael.
I remembered Zara once said, "Orang yang tidak disangkakan masuk mimpi."

Well, this is my conversation with Eanaa: 

Hmm.. I wonder who I was with and who Raphael is going to marry.
Eanaa, can't your dream continue? xD

Readers,
Bet you realized that my posts are quite short.

I will write lots soon.

Wait and you'll see :P

*THE END*